Are you overwhelmed with a recent infertility diagnosis, or maybe overwhelmed with waiting for your next period so you can start the IVF process or you're waiting 4 more days to be able to go back to the fertility clinic for your beta to find out if your IUI worked. This season of life can be easily described by being overwhelming, often times more that I feel than I can handle. But I know that God is always with me.
"I can never escape from Your Spirit! I can never get away from your presence! If I go to heaven you are there; if I go down to the grave you are there. If I ride the wings of the morning, if I dwell by the farthest oceans, even there your hand will guide me, and your strength will support me. I could ask the darkness to hide me and the light around me to become night-but even in the darkness I cannot hide from you. To you the night shines as bright as day. Darkness and light are the same to you." Psalms 139: 7-12
I like to insert "As I go to the fertility clinic, you are there; whether this pregnancy test is positive or negative you are there".
I am currently taking birth control, to control my menstrual cycle, so I can be "batched" for IVF (yes...birth control while trying to get pregnant!!! I'm sure many of you understand this frustration!) I will stop the birth control in 5 days and in 7 days I will go in for my first ultrasound and blood work and in 8 days I will start my stims. My angst is growing as the days get closer. But I know God has a reason for this season. He had a reason for our first round of infertility, where we were blessed with beautiful, healthy boy! He had a reason for our previous failed transfers and he had a reason for our miscarriage. We may not always know what these reasons are, and we may never. But we have to keep persevering through and lean on Him. If you're like me, at times you may feel alone in this journey, but know that God is always with you. Remember, God is working within you right now and His plan is far greater than you can ever imagine.
Love and prayers for your baby blessing!